READ : Mark 5:1-20
What have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? (v. 7)
What are you gaining from your miseries? What is the pleasure of your problems? If you could take a pill that would make your problems go away, what would you lose in the process? Attention? Sympathy? A crutch? An excuse to escape responsibility?
The demoniac is a bundle of ambiguity. He wants to be near Jesus, yet he doesn’t want Jesus to be near him. He is attracted to, and repelled by, the Son of God. He wants to be rid of his demons, yet he wants Jesus to go away and leave him alone.
We, too, strike deals with our demons, and to be rid of them is to be rid of the security, the excuses that they provide. We want God to come near to us. But not too near. We want Jesus to heal us, but healing means change, and change hurts.
The good news is that Jesus does not give up on the demoniac. Despite the poor man’s indecisiveness, Jesus refuses to leave until healing takes place. And more good news: the Christ who healed this wretched man is still able to heal those who come to him today.
Do not give up on me, O God. Do not pull back from me, even though I pull back from you.